Please don't think for a moment that I think I have the secret to unlocking the mysteries of God. I know I don't; but, I do have another insight about God that I wanted to write down...its about contentment. I believe that God just wants us to be content with where we are and with our relationship with Him.
When we constantly search and try on our own to "make something happen", it doesn't work out-God doesn't give us what we think we want. An example of this was meeting my husband...
when I met my husband, I was working at a ranch in the Rocky Mountains. I was there to escape men, escape the pressures of life and grow in my relationship with God. I had just gotten over a 2.5 year relationship and then did some random dating, and frankly, I reached the point where I was done searching for Mr. RIght. I reached a point in my life for the first time where I could honestly say, "It is well with my soul." My soul was at peace. I was content and totally fine with being single and doing the work of the Lord. Then wouldn't you know it, my husband shows up. It's like God said, "Good, I got you where I want you, now here, have your husband, which is the desire of you heart."
Well, for the past several years I've really struggled with being content at where I was at. I dreamed of far away places, of traveling, of doing missions work in foregin lands...so we went to India this summer and I came home, and for the first time I can honestly say that nagging feeling of uncontentment is gone...completely gone. I have felt so content at where I'm at and what I am doing...that irritaing feeling that I was "missing out" or "not doing what I was suppossed to be doing" is gone.
Then..............we get a letter asking us to go to Kolkata, India. Ahhh...just when I was content!
But if I look at the outcome of my first experience (a happy marriage), who am I to say "um...no God, I am content now..leave me alone."
I really think God can only use us and bless us if we are truly at peace. But is there only one avenue that would fulfill God's will? Hmmmm...another question in which to spend sleepless nights pondering.....
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